ugh

Well, this morning I woke up to realize that I have gotten the cold/bug/something that has been floating around lately. Hooray! So, I have decided to wash my bedding, stock up on OJ, and take as good care of myself as I can. The only problem is, this cold magnifies my spinal pain. Course, I may just be imagining that, as the mind can be quite a powerful thing, but I sometimes doubt it's making that stuff up.

My only hope is that I get over this cold as quickly as possible, in order to minimize the pain, and keep myself in a reasonably good mood.

I make no promises! That, and I cannot guarantee any human contact like dates this week. I do not like to get people sick. At least the ones I can tolerate haha.

:-P

Update!

I went to go see Defiance last night, and it was one of the better movies I have seen in theaters lately. Depicts a lot of hardships people used to have to go through, as well as some philosophical/ethical dilemmas.

Today, I had a doctor's appointment... the MRI results came in. Seems that there is a lot of degeneration in my cervical spine, and the column is narrower than it should be. I also learned that surgery would not be able to fix this problem, which is probably a good thing anyway. It goes nicely with the degenerative disc disorder in my lumbar spine as well. I have gone through physio to ease this, as I know it cannot disappear, but there are still certain limitations that I have... especially on certain days when my back is being fussy.

My doctor also mentioned something about a CT scan, but I hadn't heard anything about getting one before that appointment. Although, I do have an EMG study and consultation later in the next couple of months, to determine if I have carpal tunnel (sp?) syndrome.

Anyway, enough update for now. I am leaving town for a week to look after my aunt's house while she will be on vacation, so maybe I will update again during that time, or afterwards. I'm going to try to say something on here more often than I have before.

Have a good morning! :)

I seem to get bouts of creativity... Some days I will have great idea starters for stories, or even businesses, but I never seem to follow through with them. I now have about 7 story ideas, one business idea, and a stack of poetry I am not doing anything with. I keep thinking that I'll start again when things settle down, but it doesn't end up happening. Seems I need to focus more on self-discipline if I am to get anywhere with it. Or get anywhere with anything, as it seems some things have ground to a halt. No matter how much I am trying, I am finding that some things are quite difficult to accomplish. Perhaps my ambition is dwindling... or perhaps, I just need to find a newer, better lease on life. That, and maybe a person or two that I can bounce ideas off of, and maybe collaborate on a novel or two. I may just need a boost in self-esteem, or something as well. Sometimes I rather like to know what is wrong, other than just pondering about what it could be, but theorizing is all I am able to do at times. I need to get rid of old baggage, and begin anew. Of that I am certain.

Celebrations this day.

Happy Imbolc, Groundhog Day, and Candlemas on this February 2nd night! I hope this day and all following afterwards are filled with cheer and good tidings for everyone.

Kind of sappy, I know, but hey, days are to be celebrated, and not mourned. May we find peace, understanding, and the strength to spread the meaning of those words.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Groundhog_day
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Imbolc
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Purification_of_the_Virgin