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Well, this morning I woke up to realize that I have gotten the cold/bug/something that has been floating around lately. Hooray! So, I have decided to wash my bedding, stock up on OJ, and take as good care of myself as I can. The only problem is, this cold magnifies my spinal pain. Course, I may just be imagining that, as the mind can be quite a powerful thing, but I sometimes doubt it's making that stuff up.

My only hope is that I get over this cold as quickly as possible, in order to minimize the pain, and keep myself in a reasonably good mood.

I make no promises! That, and I cannot guarantee any human contact like dates this week. I do not like to get people sick. At least the ones I can tolerate haha.

:-P

Update!

I went to go see Defiance last night, and it was one of the better movies I have seen in theaters lately. Depicts a lot of hardships people used to have to go through, as well as some philosophical/ethical dilemmas.

Today, I had a doctor's appointment... the MRI results came in. Seems that there is a lot of degeneration in my cervical spine, and the column is narrower than it should be. I also learned that surgery would not be able to fix this problem, which is probably a good thing anyway. It goes nicely with the degenerative disc disorder in my lumbar spine as well. I have gone through physio to ease this, as I know it cannot disappear, but there are still certain limitations that I have... especially on certain days when my back is being fussy.

My doctor also mentioned something about a CT scan, but I hadn't heard anything about getting one before that appointment. Although, I do have an EMG study and consultation later in the next couple of months, to determine if I have carpal tunnel (sp?) syndrome.

Anyway, enough update for now. I am leaving town for a week to look after my aunt's house while she will be on vacation, so maybe I will update again during that time, or afterwards. I'm going to try to say something on here more often than I have before.

Have a good morning! :)

I seem to get bouts of creativity... Some days I will have great idea starters for stories, or even businesses, but I never seem to follow through with them. I now have about 7 story ideas, one business idea, and a stack of poetry I am not doing anything with. I keep thinking that I'll start again when things settle down, but it doesn't end up happening. Seems I need to focus more on self-discipline if I am to get anywhere with it. Or get anywhere with anything, as it seems some things have ground to a halt. No matter how much I am trying, I am finding that some things are quite difficult to accomplish. Perhaps my ambition is dwindling... or perhaps, I just need to find a newer, better lease on life. That, and maybe a person or two that I can bounce ideas off of, and maybe collaborate on a novel or two. I may just need a boost in self-esteem, or something as well. Sometimes I rather like to know what is wrong, other than just pondering about what it could be, but theorizing is all I am able to do at times. I need to get rid of old baggage, and begin anew. Of that I am certain.

Celebrations this day.

Happy Imbolc, Groundhog Day, and Candlemas on this February 2nd night! I hope this day and all following afterwards are filled with cheer and good tidings for everyone.

Kind of sappy, I know, but hey, days are to be celebrated, and not mourned. May we find peace, understanding, and the strength to spread the meaning of those words.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Groundhog_day
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Imbolc
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Purification_of_the_Virgin

Good thing these don't need titles, as I sometimes have a hard time thinking up good ones.

I keep on thinking about how I don't need anyone else in order to validate who I am in life, but it does tend to get lonely at times. Quite a conundrum, if you think about it. I mean sure I could be happy without a man, but it is nice to have one around once in a while.

How does one just drop all of the traditional roles that women at least used to play, and focus on other things in life? It can be quite difficult at times, and I am not even sure I have started to even now.

Doesn't help that technology is making us lazy.... there are so many electronic gadgets we don't even need. Just creates more clutter. Oh, I'm sure some people could benefit from creature comfort technology, but the average person does not necessarily need an electric can opener, a snowblower, or even a vehicle in a lot of instances. Would cut down on a lot of money drainage. Although, I guess some things are around just for that purpose.... TVs, etc.

Anyways, I had a doctor's appointment recently to talk about the x-ray results I had recently done, and like I had guessed, I needed another x-ray and an MRI done as well. There is a nerve in my neck that is being pinched, and the MRI would show how much it is being pinched. Bones kind of suck, since on top of that I also have degenerative disc disorder in my 3,4,5 and 6th vertebrae. As long as I keep up with my physio, then it should be all right.