Good thing these don't need titles, as I sometimes have a hard time thinking up good ones.

I keep on thinking about how I don't need anyone else in order to validate who I am in life, but it does tend to get lonely at times. Quite a conundrum, if you think about it. I mean sure I could be happy without a man, but it is nice to have one around once in a while.

How does one just drop all of the traditional roles that women at least used to play, and focus on other things in life? It can be quite difficult at times, and I am not even sure I have started to even now.

Doesn't help that technology is making us lazy.... there are so many electronic gadgets we don't even need. Just creates more clutter. Oh, I'm sure some people could benefit from creature comfort technology, but the average person does not necessarily need an electric can opener, a snowblower, or even a vehicle in a lot of instances. Would cut down on a lot of money drainage. Although, I guess some things are around just for that purpose.... TVs, etc.

Anyways, I had a doctor's appointment recently to talk about the x-ray results I had recently done, and like I had guessed, I needed another x-ray and an MRI done as well. There is a nerve in my neck that is being pinched, and the MRI would show how much it is being pinched. Bones kind of suck, since on top of that I also have degenerative disc disorder in my 3,4,5 and 6th vertebrae. As long as I keep up with my physio, then it should be all right.

Update:
I still have no job, but I am always on the lookout!

This means that I am still mooching off my parents. Not exactly what I had in mind for this time in my life, but I guess it happens sometimes.

Speaking of which, they have recently purchased a new house on the other side of town, and are in the process of doing a little renovation and repair on the place. Keeps me somewhat occupied, and I really don't mind it.

Although, now it makes me want to get my own house, and add my own personal touch to it. Hopefully soon, when I am able to get a steady enough job, and get things in order. I would rather not have anything weighing me down, like debts before I get my own little living space.

Which also makes me think that I should already be getting my own family. While I know there is plenty of time for that, it's still in the back of my mind, that I should have one soon. After all, my parents met in high school, and mom had me when she was only a year older than I am now. I don't care what anyone says, it is quite difficult to get out of that mindset. And while I think it would be nice to have a family sooner rather than later, I still would like to do it when I am more financially stable. So for now, I guess I will just try and focus on doing so, and try to put aside the other thoughts that can get cluttered in the old attic.

ACK!

Alright, I am SERIOUSLY bad at this. Haha.

Few things have been going on lately though. I broke up with my boyfriend of 6 years in May, and have been moving around a bit. I was living with him briefly in Waterloo, but failing to find a job, I moved back to Thunder Bay. My parents had their 25th wedding anniversary during the summer, and my cousin had a wedding shortly afterwards.

During this time, my aunt made me proposition: I could help her out with her small business while she got it all settled. So, I moved again to another town, in order to help out my aunt. Recently though, she had to let me go because there isn't enough business to keep both her and I on the employee payroll.

So here I am in Thunder Bay again, looking for a job and single, but I think this is just the beginning of a new time for me.... a time to grow, and actually figure out what the hell I am supposed to actually DO with my life. Some people say there is plenty of time, and since most of my family lives usually into their 90's, I'd say that's a pretty good bet. But sometimes life can surprise you, so I'll just explore options that I find. If that means sadly neglecting this thing for 2 years (yikes!), then I suppose that's a sacrifice I will have to take. I will apologize now to my many reader in case that happens again.